sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
Jan 29 04
10PM; Today went very fast. Taking care of grandma has left me tired and in lower back pain. She can no longer move. I've had to carry her, lift her and adjust her in bed.
Feb 05 04
8PM; Grandma has pulled out of her stroke. I finally can return to this diary. Tomarrow, I get to see Dr. Anders. I haven't been hallucinating as much. However I have been quite detached at times to the point where I wasn't hearing people even if they screamed at me. I'm not driving because of this.
Feb 06 04
3PM; After seeing Dr. Anders, I was and am elated. He said that except for the detachment, I was having a remission.
Feb 08 04
3PM; Uncle Jack, Aunt Sue and Aunt Linda came over for a visit. They were a little on the downside.
Feb 10 04
10PM; It seems although I have spent all day either sleeping or watching grandma. I think that both of us are in low gear. The exception being I have had a high level of anxiety.
Feb 19 04
12 AM; I am hearing multiple voices coming at me. I can't sort them out. This sucks. I am going to talk to mom
1AM; Mom told me to take another Haldol, so I did.
2AM The voices have stopped.
4AM; I'm going to sleep now.
1PM; I just woke up to a noisy sound in my room. Yes, the voices have returned. I'm gunna call Dr. Anders.
4PM; Dr. Anders said to take an extra Haldol every day until this psychotic "flare up" goes away.
Feb 21 04
11AM; I wake up at 10am, which is very unusual for me. Right now I am full of anxiety and generalized confusion due to all the voices I am hearing.
9PM; Grandma needs help from her wheel chair to her bed. This usually is a snap however I am hearing voices telling me not to do it. After I asked mom to help me, she didn't know I was tripping. I felt more at ease helping grandma.
Feb 22 04
9PM; I spent the entire day helping grandma, while I was detached or hearing voices. This is very difficult to do.
Feb 25 04
7PM; I've not had any hallucinations today. However I've been battling anxiety to the point of sweats.
9PM; The anxiety has abstained, I am looking forward to an excellent. evening.
Feb 26 04
6PM; I have been hearing voices all day telling me to do this or that. Today is one of those days when I have ringing in my ears from all the voices.
Mar 01 04
3AM; Had to wake up Dad because hallucinations were unbearable. Dad said to take an additional Haldol.
5PM; Feeling normal except for a bad sinus headache
Mar 02 04
12PM; Hallucinations drove me to put in a call to Dr. Anders.
1:15PM Dr. Anders called and told me to take an extra Haldol.
11PM; The extra Haldol did not help. I am hearing voices.
