James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized




JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY

Jan 11 04

4PM; I'm having another good day so far. I slept great, dreamed and I woke up peacefully.

6PM; Since Roger and mom have been out all day, I have been spending my time with Buddy the dog. He is a very fat but good dog. He doesn't give me attitude to deal with. I hope Roger gets home soon so we can watch Steven Seagals latest movie, "belly of the Beast"

7PM; Mom and Roger returned from the force soccer game. They had a great time. I personally think it's good for Roger to spend time with my mom.

11PM; The movie was outstanding. Roger and I really enjoyed it. As a matter of fact, this whole day was the best in a long time. I'm now going to bed.

 

Jan 12 04

5PM; Roger found my stamp collection. Oh, what a happy day this is. I can finally have the means to put him through college. I feel although a great weight is lifted off my shoulders.

 

Jan 13 04

9AM; I have had another great day. Although I am feeling sped up. I doubt that I will sleep tonight. I pray I don't hallucinate.

 

Jan 14 04

6AM; I have not slept all night because of hallucinations. I should have taken another Haldol when my mind was all sped up.

4PM; I looked in my medicine tray for yesterday. And found two Haldols wedged in the corner. This type of mistake is usually why I hallucinate.

 

Jan 15 04

5PM; I wake up early this morning, so I don't have my usual pop and energy. To combine this, I have had six cups of coffee, spread out over the next few hours. I know that this is going to cause anxiety, but I have a long list of things to do.

 

Jan 17 04

6PM; Today has been another great day. No Hallucinations. No anxiety. Today has also been very boring. I haven't put in any entries for a few days now. I have had mostly symptom free, so I have enjoyed life and the tranquility of a quiet mind.

 

Jan 21 04

2PM; I am very upset, yet aloof, about grandma going to the hospital until there's an opening at the nursing home.

 

Jan 22 04

2AM; I am back to the anxiety and hallucinations. I woke up mom, and she sat with me until an extra Haldol took effect.

2PM; I just woke up. I am full of anxiety and I feel just awful. The fact that grandma is going into a nursing home is making me upset to the point of anxiety/panic attacks.

 

Jan 23 04

3PM; I woke up because Buddy had to urinate outside. I am feeling well and hae been taking my meds correctly for a week now.

 

Jan 24 04

9AM; I am really excited that grandma is coming home today. I don't know why my anxiety goes up when good things are about to happen. It apparently goes up whether I'm feeling good or bad. When she arrives I will sit next to her for the rest of the day.

 

Jan 27 04

5PM; From 11am till now I'm taking care of grandma. She is really having a ruff time today. This is causing a great deal of anxiety on me.

9PM; Grandmas night meds is given to her.

10PM; Grandmas night dose kicked in now its time for me to go to bed




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