sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
February 28 05
6PM; I woke up at 1PM and felt dizzy. I have felt this way all day. Even now I feel light-headed and dizzy. I don’t feel anxiety or hallucinogenic.
March 02 05
5PM; Today has been a difficult day to say the least. No hallucinations, but there has been a lot of anxiety attacks.
March 04 05
7PM; I have been symptom-free for 2 days now.
March 05 05
7PM; Anxiety and Apathy are my main enemies today. I have a real low anxiety threshold and All I’ve wanted to do today is to lay in bed and shut the world out.
March 09 05
10AM; I am doing a lot better than the 7th and 8th where I was hallucinating my ass off. Today at least this morning I feel invigorated and ready to take on the day.
5PM; Just like yesterday I am now actively hallucinating. I am seeing sound and hearing colors. There are a myriad of smells.
(This gap in diary was due to misplacing it and not being able to find it.)
March 18 05
4AM; I’m still awake and can’t sleep. No anxiety, hallucinations or detachment.
5PM; I feel agitated and full of anxiety. I think this is due to the caffeine I had in the form of two cups of regular coffee.
March 19 05
2PM; I’m doing just fine today with the exception of anxiety.
March 20 05
2PM; I have a lot of anxiety today. No hallucinations no detachment
7PM; Today has gone well no hallucinations or detachment or overwhelming anxiety. There has been a lot of anxiety, but not to the degree of me staying in bed with apathy.
March 21 05
11AM; I woke up at 9AM feeling very nervous. I also had a headache. These subsided as I took my morning meds and took a shower. Right now I feel great with exception of anxiety.
9PM; Anxiety level is so high that I feel as if I am floating outside my body.
March 22 05
8PM; I’m feeling a lot of anxiety. I’m going to see Dr. Anders tomorrow. I’m going to ask to go back to 4mg/day of Klonopin.
