sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
January 11 05
8PM; I’m really tripping. I must take more Haldol 10mg… 20 minutes… I took it and am starting to clear up.
11PM; Feeling extra crispy. Sorta like depression/apathy.
February 16 05
7PM; I made another stupid mistake today on my cell. Sometiems I over use my cell minutes
February 17 05
(Stayed all day in bed sick)
February 18 05
6PM; Just came back from outside for ½ hr. Looking for Molly the dog. We have about 5in. of snow and we have a wind chill of 0 degrees F, so I am tired. Had my morning hallucinations. Am presently aware of my consciousness, and
February 19 05
This morning I hallucinated about Gma Caldwell (deceased) Gma Jones (about to kick it) and Mom. They were all asking me to help them.
4PM; I’m still hearing voices and am sick and tired of it.
February 21 05
9PM; At 4PM I saw Dr. Anders and he increased my Haldol to a total of 35mg/day. I was only taking 20mg a day before the increase.
February 22 05
3PM; I hallucinated until 2PM and they went away. The increase in Haldol has not taken effect yet. This means another fuckign day of waiting. However, I do not feel as detached as yesterday.
7PM; Feeling much better with hallucinations. However, detached and full of anticipatory anxiety.
February 23 05
2PM; Anxiety and hallucinations are non-existant today. I am feeling a warm sensation throughout my mind and body.
February 24 05
4PM; No Hallucinations moderate anxiety. An overall good day.
February 25 05
12PM; Having voices in the AM tapered off with noon dose of meds.
February 26 05
2PM; Feeling drowsy today. No hallucinations very little anxiety not worth mentioning. Staying in room.
4PM; I’m relaxed yet alert. My thought patterns are goofy, but this isn’t going to keep me in my room for long. I am going to go out as soon as cousin Larry comes over.
February 27 05
8PM; It’s been a long good day no hallucinations lots of AM anxiety.
