James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized




JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY

December 30 04

11AM; I’m awake and rested from a long night’s sleep. I don’t feel sped up or full of symptoms.

 

December 31 04

1:30AM; I got a call from my cousin. I had forgotten to take my night dose, so I am taking it now.

3PM; I feel a lot of stress today. I hope I don’t hallucinate.

4PM; Took evening dose + extra 10mg of Haloperidol.

 

January 01 05

8AM; I slept real well. Hallucinating moderately, I think these will go away, once the Abilify and the Haldol take effect.

6PM; Anxiety high, took extra Haldol so I won’t hallucinate.

 

January 03 04

4PM; Well; Roger is preparing to leave tomorrow about 2PM. I feel bumed out that I could not get him what I’d promised him. However; we all should be happy that Christ was given to us/ gave himself to us.

10PM; Mom, Roger, Nicky, and I went out for dinner at Outback’s and saw National Treasure at Regal Cinemas. Both Dinner and movie were great. I now feel a bit detached. May be sensory overload.

 

January 04 05

11AM; Feeling good in all respects.

7PM; Roger just call on to say he had a very good flight, and that he was safe! “feeling down” I miss Roger very much.

 

January 05 05

2PM; I feel a little down and out.

3PM; I get to see Dr. Charles now. Boy do I have a lot to talk about.

5PM; Dr. Charles was very insightful about my worries. I am fortunate to have such a good Pyschologist.

 

January 06 05

6PM; I’ve been up since 5:15AM Today was filled with anticipation of what I don’t know. No hallucinations. A lot of anxiety, a little bit scatterbrained.

 

January 07 05

8PM; I’ve felt scatterbrained all day. Writing this is almost impossible.

 

January 08 05

7PM; I’ve felt more lucid in thought all day.

 

January 09 05

12PM; I’m feeling enthusiastic about today. I mostly symptom free.

3PM; Still feeling well. W/ the exception of anxiety. Anxiety is mostly due to my disappointment with Roger.

 

January 10 05

2PM; Feeling tense but all other types of symptoms aren’t here.




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