sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
December 22 04
3PM; My entire family is out X-mas shopping. I can’t and won’t go because large groups of people really freak me out. So, I’m staying home with my dog, Buddy, and playing video games.
9:30PM; Today has been uneventful for the most part. I feel relaxed and detached. I hope that I don’t start hallucinating tonight.
11PM; Did not hallucinate tonight.
December 23 04
1PM; I’m very tired today. I slept to 11:45 AM 12 hours of sleep is just too damn much sleep. It leaves me tired and apathetic towards life.
4PM; I feel agitated and apathetic in general. I have to put on a good show for Roger. I don’t want to ruin my only child’s Christmas.
December 24 04
8PM; Christmas eve celebration at Jeremy’s went well despite hallucinations. Anxiety manifested as the “Runs” didn’t stop me.
December 25 04
7AM; 3 Leprechauns would not leave me alone, so I woke up Dad to talk to me. Dad was reassuring. Took extra Haldol 10mg.
2PM; Went to Emily’s house to celebrate X-mas.
8PM; Returned home with Megan and Roger.
December 26 04
1PM; Just woke up. Feeling anxious, but not in hallucinatory state.
2PM; Medicine working. No anxiety, no other symptoms. I need to take a shower. My hair is all messed up. I might go to the Mall with Roger.
6PM; All alone in the house. Bored. Looking for things to do. T.V. isn’t that bad of an idea.
December 27 04
2PM; I am hallucinating again, a lot of anxiety. Shit anyone who hallucinates gets scared. It is not a fun thing, and to think people take drugs to get this way.
December 28 04
2PM; Amazingly I have no symptoms today. I feel rested. I feel calm, cool, and collected.
9PM; For some reason, I feel all sped up. I hope I can sleep tonight
11PM; Still Sped up.
December 29 04
1:30AM; I still feel as though I am on speed.
5AM; Still no sleep.
3PM; Took 2 hr nap feeling sped up again.
8PM; All I feel like doing is going to sleep!
