sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
December 04 04
3PM; Feeling comparatively well. The only problem is anxiety today. I feel as nervous as a pregnant Nun.
7PM; Feeling scared like impending DOOM. This is when being schizophrenic, really sucks.
December 05 04
10PM; This had to be the most boring day I’ve ever had.
December 08 04
3PM; Feeling anxious and nervous. I wonder why I’m losing weight so fast. When I’m taking in more calories on this Diet: Cheating.
11PM; My nerves are under control. I think that the pain to my injury was driving the anxiety. I even have puked because of severe pain in my arm, shoulder, and neck.
December 10 04
5PM; Everything is going well except for the occasional break-through hallucination. I only had 2 today.
11PM; I’m feeling blue. I’ve had very little energy and am currently in a lot of pain.
December 11 04
1PM; Yesterday, I went back to 300mg/day of Wellbutrin. I was able to sleep well and long. I feel rested. I don’t know whats in store for me today, for I just woke up.
7PM; I hope to have a good evening playing video games with my favorite cousin.
December 12 04
11PM; Today was very much better than yesterday, with 1 exception. I fell down the stairs from the top step backwards.
December 13 04
2PM; I’m in a lot of pain from yesterday’s fall. I think that the pain is driving my anxiety.
7PM; Feeling stable. No special problems except pain in the left arm shoulder and neck. I smell like an add for Ben Gay.
December 14 04
2PM; I’m hallucinating candle lights without the candles. Everything is beautiful and the colors smell like candy.
5PM; I feel great! My pain is still there, boy emotions affect is high. I took 10mg of Haloperidol, and it stopped my hallucinating within an hour.
December 16 04
10AM; I woke up at 5AM this morning in a lot of PAIN! I really hope I don’t puke from the pain today. The pain in my arm is unbearable. It is driving my hallucinations, and made me puke 4x yesterday.
5PM; Today went rather well. I laid down for several hours and took a percocette to tackle the pain issue. I’ve had no hallucinations since 12PM. I’m going over my cousin’s house to play video games tonight.
December 17 04
12PM; Ate breakfast took meds, feeling great got 8hrs sleep last night.
December 19 04
5PM; Took pain medicine Percocetts Feeling good. Anxiety normal. No hallucinations.
December 20 04
8PM; My son just called from St. Petersburg, FL, and said that his plane will be 15 minutes early into Cleveland. My anxiety level is skyrocketed. I am seeing little stars everywhere.
