sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
November 19 04
2PM; Another trippy day for me to try to keep this book going.
3PM; I’m not leaving the house today or tonight for I feel that I may hallucinate.
8PM; I’m feeling detached and my ears are picking up voices. I’m taking Haloperidol 20mg to thwart a full blown Pyschotic Break.
9PM; The Haldol addition really helped, so now I’m going to enjoy the rest of the night.
November 20 04
2PM; Feeling good in all respects.
11PM; Today has been a good day. Earlier I had to take 1 Haldol 10mg, but that helped out more than any thing else.
November 21 04
6PM; Today has been excellent with the exception of severe pain in my left shoulder, upper arm, elbow, and hand.
November 22 04
(Did not sleep last Night!)
10AM; Saw Demdora and pondered the possibility of a rotor-cuff problem along with the Brachial Plexis problem.
2PM; At MRI place MRI went well
6PM; Having Salmon Broiled and Cole Slaw.
7PM; Pain is subsiding due to percacet.
November 23 04
1PM; I’m a little trippy today. I think that I’d better take an extra 10mg of Haldol before I hallucinate.
November 25 04
2:45PM; Day starts out okay. However I have been hallucinating since I woke up. I am presently going to get 10mg of Haloperidol to achieve some sanity.
November 26 04
12PM; I woke up earlier than usual. I’m feeling charged up from a good night’s sleep. My anxiety is low, hallucinatory threshold is very high.
November 27 04
11AM; Just woke up feeling sketchy at best.
2PM; Took 2 extra Haloperidols. I hope this will take effect soon.
3PM; The Haloperidol are starting to work. It’s only a matter of time that I have of suffering. Then, I can enjoy watching the Army/Navy game.
November 28 04
1PM; My day starts out pecularly. It’s like being in the “Twilight Zone”. Everything is here yet nothing is here.
2PM; Feeling O.k. Mom is going to give me $8.00 to go to a movie tonight with Nicky. I’m not hallucinating today and I feel moderate anxiety.
November 30 04
I put in a call to Dr. Anders. He called back I explained that I needed 4mg/day vs 3mg/day that I was taking presently. He saw what I was trying to say, and he said he’d call in the prescription.
December 02 04
4PM; I have been sleeping better with taking 4mg of Klonopin. Today I didn’t wake up till 1PM. I feel no signs of hallucinations or anxiety or apathy. My mood is good and my outlook on life is much better. I am living not just existing!
December 03 04
4PM; Slept in till noon. Feeling sedated today. No complaints except feeling tired. No anxiety, no hallucinations.
