sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
October 24 04
5PM; I’ve been hallucinating steadily since last night, I took extra Haldol to combat this However, it’s not helping too much.
9PM; I’m hallucinating terribly. I just can’t stand it anymore.
October 25 04
3PM; This is starting out the same way it did yesterday, so I called into Dr. Anders I’m awaiting his call return.
4:30PM; Dr. Anders said to give the extra Haldol time to work. He also told me to not look into mirrors and take an extra Clonazepam, since this could be a manifestation of anxiety.
October 26 04
1PM; I am feeling much better today.
October 28 04
12PM; I am well rested and the Haldol is in gear. Today seems to be starting off well. I have very little anxiety and no hallucinations. I truly wish that every day starts like this.
October 29 04
1PM; I had a rough night of sleep. However; I’m feeling great in all respects.
October 30 04
2PM; Anxiety is the only problem today. I just got my SSI Check and I will only have $50 to spend.
November 04 04
4PM; It looks as though I’m going to have to pay for my Clonazepam, since I took an extra pill for 2 weeks. This is because of multiple anxiety attacks, probably caused by too much coffee.
9PM; I’m the only one home. Every noise in the house is magnified by ensuing silence.
November 05 04
4PM; Feeling a relaxed “speed-up” in my system. Part of this could be anxiety about Dad’s malpractice case against, Summa, for what they did to Dad, I hope he bleeds them dry!
November 06 04
2PM; I wasn’t able to get any sleep last night because of brachial plexus pain running down my left arm. In spite of this, I feel calm, cool and collected. There seems to be no pre-hallucinatory or pre-anxiety signs. Therefore; I am lucky to have such a nice day.
11:30PM; Today is perfect except my pain. I just hope I can sleep.
November 08 04
1PM; I’m experiencing a lot of anxiety now. I am going to see DomDera about a sinus infection and pain running from my neck down to my fingers.
5PM; I’m feeling less anxiety. I don’t know why. I’m now adding vicodin HP’s and Doxycyclene BID to my list of medicines.
November 09 04
3PM; I just finished watching a movie. I think to myself; I really appreciate a painfree restful sleep last night. It lifts the point that “There is a God”
5PM; I just got called another God Damned Medicaid recipient by a pharmacist at Marc’s in Fairlawn, OH (330) 869-0426. I will not forget this.
November 16 04
4PM; I’m hallucinating that I’m in Ireland. The date is unknown for there are no structures architecturally find the time.
November 17 04
2PM; I slept like a baby last night. It was probably due to the fact that hallucinating just wore me out. I feel great so far today.
November 18 04
7PM; Today I functioned really well. I drove into downtown area and did a little shopping with Dad. I temporarily lost my cell phone and took all my meds on time.
9PM; I called Roger and he was tired so I told him I’d call tomorrow. I called Jeff, but he was still working. I wanted to apologize for having audible hallucinations while talking to him on the phone on Tuesday.
