sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
September 14 04
8PM; I am very sick w/ a sinus infection. I just keep sweating and sweating. I think that the pseudafed that I am taking is messing with my head. My heart is beating fast, and I am very anxious. Dr. Anders said this might happen.
1PM; I’m more relaxed and only suffer pain in my sinuses and the sweats.
September 15 04
7PM; I’ve just returned from the Springfield “dog pound”. Buddy went astray while we were riding on the Gator up the street. I’m so glad he wasn’t hit by a car.
September 16 04
5:30PM; My sinuses still hurt. I had both visual and audible hallucinations today.
September 17 04
3PM; Roger just called and told me that he’s going to a keg party tonight. Now I’m worried.
3:30PM; I called Maria’s cell and told her about Roger ’s plans.
3:40PM; Roger called me and told me to tell Maria that “he was just joking”
September 19 04
2PM; Wake up just now. I am feeling really paranoid.
2:30PM; Gma Jones has just slipped into a coma.
3PM; I visited Gma; Everyone is crying or upset there. I have to go home. I can’t take this much bad karma.
5PM; I’m finally home. I’m going to rest.
8PM; After getting some rest, I felt , and even now feel great.
September 22 04
4PM; I’m home from taking Dad to Walmart. Now, I must work out to combat the anxiety I’m feeling. I had 6 cups of coffee today. This is the cause of my anxiety. I’m too full of jitters, and I want to get rid of them.
5PM; I worked out pretty hard, but didn’t get rid of the anxiety and the jitters.
8PM; I took 2 extra Haloperidol. (10mgs a piece) and now feel more even keel.
September 24 04
3PM; I really got a lot of stuff done this afternoon. I’m proud of changing the wheel with my Dad.
6PM; Done odd jobs around the house, pool and backyard. Mom wanted me to sweep the driveway. I came inside. I had done enough!
September 25 04
8AM; I just woke up and took a shower. Feeling well.
2PM; Feeling better than going somewhere and listening to my Mom and Dad fighting at 1PM today.
5PM; I keep hearing people calling to me or just talking to me.
September 26 04
1PM; After clearing my lungs and sinuses, I now feel better. Mom seems to be in a better mood. It’s a shame that yesterday had to happen.
4PM; I feel as though I am coming down with a cold. I have the chills that often accompany a virus.
September 27 04
12PM; I kept hearing voices in the shower. Once I got done showering, the voices stopped. I really hate taking showers.
9PM; After a long day of hearing voices, I have finally taken an extra Haldol 10mg tablet. I hope tonight will be silent because I’m at my limit of my wits.
11:30PM; By this time I had to take an additional 10mgs of Haldol. I feel like worms are crawling through my muscles and are causing a great deal of pain.
