sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
July 07 04
4PM; Last night was a blast. I was sober at a drinkemup joint. I simply had the time of my life.
July 09 04
6PM; Last night I forgot to take my night dose. This morning I was tripping. This after noon, I was hearing voices. Now I am not sure whether to “eat this” “drink that” as in Alice in Wonderland.
July 10 04
1PM; I just woke up. I’m feeling better than yesterday. Not tripping or voices. However; I do have a sense of detachment.
7PM; I am starting to feel lousy again. Every imaginable hallucination is going on. I’m pretty darn frustrated.
July 11 04
3:30PM; I’m a little panicky. I don’t feel like going outside.
5PM; I would kill for a egg-salad sandwhich I don’t know why. I could just taste it.
July 13 04
2PM; I helped Dad w/ the guitar room. I’m having Anxiety for the most part of my consciousness.
July 14 04 (Blood is on this page of the notebook)
2PM; I am feeling nauseous and tired. Buddy woke me up at 5:30AM, and I could not get back to sleep.
July 15 04
5PM; I just finished talking with Dr. Charles we talked about parenting skills.
July 16 04
6:30PM; I’m feeling pretty good. The only complaint is Akathesia and tremors in my arms and legs from the Haldol.
10PM; I am alone again for another weekend night. I just want to go out and meet women.
July 17 04
1PM; I forgot my night dose this made me anxious, paranoid, and confused this morning. I am currently helping Dad clean the barn and garage.
5PM; We are about to eat steak for dinner. I hope my 5PM dose kicks in soon, for I am edgy and hungry.
July 19 04
7:30PM; I helped Dad clean the barn. I have 2 more days to go. I hallucinated all day , so I’m taking the fourth dose today.
July 20 04
5PM; Todays been one of those “simply great” days. I am staying w/ my diet. This makes me feel better (less psychotic)
