sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
July 04 04
1:30PM; I awake to find nobody home. For once I am feeling quite normal.
5PM; I ate a couple of pieces of grain bread and the flour and grains must have caused my face turn reddish and my eyes glossy.
July 05 04
3:30PM; I’m feeling a little trippy today. A sense of aloofness is included.
7PM; All day, I’ve felt trippy and aloof.
July 06 04
11AM; Mom gave Buddy a bath. He smells much better than before. I am feeling a dull anxiety at this time.
7:30PM; I am hearing voices. I just wish they’d shut up!
July 07 04
4PM; Last night was a blast. I was sober at a drinkemup joint. I simply had the time of my life.
July 09 04
6PM; Last night I forgot to take my night dose. This morning I was tripping. This after noon, I was hearing voices. Now I am not sure whether to “eat this” “drink that” as in Alice in Wonderland.
July 10 04
1PM; I just woke up. I’m feeling better than yesterday. Not tripping or voices. However; I do have a sense of detachment.
7PM; I am starting to feel lousy again. Every imaginable hallucination is going on. I’m pretty darn frustrated.
July 11 04
3:30PM; I’m a little panicky. I don’t feel like going outside.
5PM; I would kill for a egg-salad sandwhich I don’t know why. I could just taste it.
July 13 04
2PM; I helped Dad w/ the guitar room. I’m having Anxiety for the most part of my consciousness.
July 14 04 (Blood is on this page of the notebook)
2PM; I am feeling nauseous and tired. Buddy woke me up at 5:30AM, and I could not get back to sleep.
July 15 04
5PM; I just finished talking with Dr. Charles we talked about parenting skills.
