sCHIZoPHReNIa diARiES
TRUE STORIES BY REAL SCHIZOPHRENICS
James Caldwell's 2 year Diary of Getting Stabilized
JAMES CALDWELL'S STORY
June 20 04
1:25PM; I’m feeling a little bit detached. The Benadryl sometimes does that to me.
4:15PM; Sam and Katie came over for a “cook out”
June 21 04
11AM; I woke up refreshed from a tortured sleep. It seemed as though I was up all night.
7PM; I’ve been tired and detached all day long. I still feel this way. I hope I sleep tonight and have a better Tomorrow!
June 22 04
8:20PM; I told Maria that Roger might want to go to Fla. I’m feeling sad that Roger might have said that I was smoking pot.
June 23 04
3PM; I am feeling better. The issue w/ Roger does not concern me for I did not smoke any pot. Mom seems to be overwhelmed by it. I not in any way detached at this moment. I feel however that I am going to have some hallucinations at a later time in the day.
June 24 04
2:30PM; I woke up fine except for anxiety as I would expect after a good sleep. Today at 4PM I get to see Dr. Charles. I have a lot to talk about.
8PM; The appt. w/ Dr. Charles was one of my better ones. I am now feeling quite detached. I’m trying very hard to concentrate.
June 25 04
1PM; I’m in for another boring day (sarcasm)
2:30PM; Today sucks. I feel a tremendous feeling of anxiety. I wonder if all schizophrenics go through depression and apathy the way I do on a daily basis.
June 26 04
7PM; I’m definitely going to call Dr. Anders and tell him about these fucking hallucinations.
10PM; I am going to take 10mg Haloperidol extra tonight. Hopefully, I’ll stop hallucinating.
June 27 04
3PM; I’m so bothered by hallucinations that I think I’m going to lose my mind.
June 29 04
8PM; Dr. Anders temporarily increased me from 30mg Haloperidol to 40mg Haloperidol yesterday. Today, I am relieved of the hallucinations, but not the sense of detachment.
