Bev's Story of Paranoid Schizophrenia




BEV'S STORY

My Name is Bev and i live in England i have been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia feel like i am on my own in this world.


I have two sons from a previous marriage and i am married for the second time.
I feel my partner is conspiring against me and everybody in this world is judging me.


I am under a psychiatrist who is currently trying to get me on the right meds but to no avail as i feel she is temping to sedate me.

 


My parents are both dead i use to total re lie on my mum for help but now she is gone i have to try and carry on in this world but it is very difficult.


I sometimes feel like i just want to climb into a big hole and see no one, the voices in my head tells me things i do not want to hear i try and ignore them but they never go away.


I have been offered electric treatment but i refuse this.


I ask is the only way to treat this having to take med to make you so tired you cannot live a normal life.
I do try and control my way of thinking but it is so difficult with this voices that never go away. I have been told it is not me but my mind is ill but i cannot believe and never will.