A Star Is Born




A STAR IS BORN

Wow...7 years gone and not a day goes by that I don't hear something...I have it pretty managed now, if I was walking down the street you wouldn't even know I have a label..for I am Schizophrenic...actually for I AM ME!!.

 

I suffered a drug induced moment that somehow followed me 7 years later...only because I should have stopped the pills and thrills, so it eventually went from an episode to a full on, life long illness.

 

My first episode involved me thinking I was the star of a movie..thinking I could see cameras..A STAR IS BORN...and not in the "normal" sense...it was a dream from when I was little that I would be a movie star and somehow as a 23 year old young women it came smacking back into my life..the thought of being a movie star.

 

Then it went from that to me not knowing what the hell was going on and I remember this over whelming feeling of wanting to crawl under a rock and hide. I did run...right into my Dad's arms and my step mums embrace made me feel safe...not secure, for I was about to get a whole lot deeper and hear a whole lot more.

 

I walked around thru that city for days, trying to get the signs, trying to fight the spirits that the voice..let's call him The Jim was telling me. He said you hear those noises in the roof, they are spirits and I am gonna help you fight them, good golly gosh and fight I did.

 

Seriously we would probably need months for me to tell the whole story but in a short version...I went thru religion, God, life, movies, reincarnation, every little kind of spiritual awakening I experienced made me who I am today. A happy and healthy Schizophrenic..God bless my life..he does everyday!